You are you, I am me

I used to talk to you everyday but now,
I cant even start a convo with you.
I cant communicate with you.
I cant talk to you.
I found there is nothing to talk about.
You have become a stranger to me now.
You're another person I haven't known.
You are a total stranger to me.

P/S: I just wish I had someone to talk to. Someone who is trustable. Unfortunately, there is no one I can even trust.

Gosh, I'm so obsessed with this song! < 3

HEAR YOU ME BY JIMMY EAT WORLD



My favorite part of the movie-A Cinderella Story. I love this scene-classic.


There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go
I never said thank you for that
'thought I might get one more chance

What would you think of me now?
So lucky, so strong, so proud
I never said thank you for that
Now I'll never have a chance

May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead you in
So what would you think of me now?
So lucky, so strong, so proud

I never said thank you for that
Now I'll never have a chance
May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads the sleepless go

May angels lead you in
(May angels lead you in)
May angels lead you in
(May angels lead you in)
May angels lead you in

And if you were with me tonight
I'd sing to you just one more time
A song for a heart so big
God wouldn't let it live

May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads the sleepless go
May angels lead you in

May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads the sleepless go
May angels lead you in


P/S:I wish I could find someone to sing this song. I'm so obsessed with this song can't help it. Gosh, I'm so obsessed with this song! <3 

WHAT IS A FRIEND???

I am tired of everything. I am tired of all the crap that goes on. I wish I could just drop everything and leave this town now. I wish I could go back go back to those days at secondary school where all the fun was happening. I am not happy with my current life. It's an unfortunate fact that sometimes, life's just not fair.

I had learned that I could not trust certain people especially people surrounding me. They are worse than I thought. For them, friends are useless. They "use" their friend for some certain purpose. I had understood why they people don't appreciate friendship. I'm just realizing how selfish they really are. I had been unfortunate to make friends with those people who don't appreciate it. People tend to take things and people for granted. Sometimes, other people try to take advantage of your good nature. Even a stranger would most probably appreciate it.

What has to be done, it has been done. But whatever I have done is a big waste of time. And, it is a piece of crap. I finally realized that I was just being plain silly within the past few months. Everything that has once happened is supposed to be a memory, good or bad? For me, it's a bad memory. I still have flashbacks of everything that happened. I hope that everything that happened were all just a nightmare. But it was not a nightmare.

Are you trying to be friends with someone to be accepted into a certain clique, or because you'd like to get to know someone else that he or she knows? That's not friendship, it's opportunism. This is an example showing how people take other people for granted. There are a lot more of example.

A dishonest person has no chance of having true friends. Keep your promises, do what you say you are going to do, and most importantly, don't lie! Lying leads to more lies, and people will eventually figure you out. Once you begin to tell a lie, you've got to tell another lie to cover up the first lie. And then another lie you must tell and your lies won't stop at two. Once you begin to tell a lie, it is easier to tell another lie? I do believe one lie will lead to another lie and to more lies.

We should know the boundaries. Please bear in mind - things you and your friend discuss should be treated with care - your friend is not sharing this information with just anyone, and may not want to. Keep it to yourselves. She shared it with you - and only you, as far as you know. Don't talk about your friend behind his or her back. Nobody likes a backstabber.

It's been good to know their real person before we are fully committed to friendship.

What is a friend? What does being a friend mean to you? What does it mean to be a friend? What does it mean to be someone's friend? What are friends for?

P/S : I had been told by a 15 years old kid that  LOVE IS A PAIN.

Good new everyone! =D

THE TWILIGHT SAGA: NEW MOON will be released on November 20, 2009. 
I am really looking forward to this movie. It's gonna be awesome! Seriously can't wait for the movie. *anxious*

*grins*

Taylor Lautner *handsome guy*

Robert Pattinson

P/S : Seriously can't wait for it!!! *grins*

STOP EATING SUSHI...!!!

I recently received an email that made me feel so disgusted. I got frightened. I love to eat SUSHI so much especially SASHIMI but I felt so disgusted. Trust me, it can scare you away from sushi forever. Believe me!!!

This is a true case of a Japanese man from Gifu prefecture who complains incessantly about a persistent headache.

Mr. Shota Fujiwara loves his sashimi and sushi very much to the extent of trying to get them as 'alive and fresh' as can be for his insatiable appetite.

He develops a severe headache for the past 3 years and has put cut off as migraine and stress from work.

It was only when he started losing his psychomotor skills that he seeks medical help. A brain scan and x-ray reveals little however.

But upon closer inspection by a specialist on his scalp, the doctor noticed small movements beneath his skin.

It was then that the doctor did a local anesthetic to his scalp and discovered the cause when tiny worms crawled out.

A major surgery was thus immediately called for and the extent of the infestation was horrific.

Remember, tapeworms and roundworms and their eggs which abound in all fishes fresh or salt fishes can only be killed by thorough cooking and/or freezing the fish to between 4 deg C - 0 deg C. The eggs of these parasites can only be killed if it is cooked or frozen to the said temperatures for a week or more.

Think twice about that raw dish next time...or you might get a headache.

 Find any worms???

 

Have a closer look at the worms. Disgusting right???

You better stop eating it!!! Not to say stop, make it once in a while la.... LOL

Enjoy your wormy sushi! =)

 

ROFL

Mr. Mong has a dog named ROFL.  It's a 3 years old Rottweiler. It is pronounced as ar-oh-eff-el. He named it as ROLF because it is an accronmym for Rolling On Floor Laughing. (=.=)''''' He told us that many Rotweiler's tails are cutt off (docked) when they were 3 days old. Never knew that. LOL. Rottweiler will look ugly with its long tail. Below is a picture of Rottweiler.

P/S: Holiday coming soon. =)

Tomorrow will be a PATHETIC day

School was closed several days for the Form 4,5 and upper six students due to the PMR examination. My school had turned into a PEACEFUL place for these few days. What a nice and peaceful day! No disturbance. No noise. No one to commit crime. Or against discipline rules. And and and NO FIRECRACKERS. Peaceful school... ACS?? Peaceful school?? LMAO!!! Stop dreaming, Evon!!! Arghhhh... Tommorrow will be a PATHETIC day because those nuisance kids are coming back to school. I dont wanna go to school!!! Mr Mong will kill me if I am absent. Sigh~~
 Mr Mong took our free period to taught Chem last week. And he took my Biology periods as well. He was damn free. Mr Haeirul, my Bio teacher wasn't around because he got chosen for the PMR thingy. Look at these!!! I just calculated these!!!

How many periods of Chemistry I had for last week?

Mon (05-10-09) - 4

Tue (06-10-09) - 6 +  45 mins of colloquium

Wed (07-10-09) - 4

Thur (08-10-09) - 7 + 90 mins of colloquium

Fri (09-10-09) - I AM FREE!!! NO CHEMISTRY!!!

Ok. Let's calculate.

1 period = 35 mins

21 periods = 735 mins

                     735 mins + 135 mins (for colloqium) = 870 mins

It is equal to 14 HOURS 30 MINS

This is killing me. Mr Mong, you are killing me, you know! Luckily I still managed to survive and I am still be able to bear with him. He craps a lot. But it's funny, though. I like the way he relates Chem to our life and he taught us some applications. And, it makes sense. What the hillarious part is when he relates Yamuna with a guy named Vicra-Man. Example, Yamuna and Vicraman were held by strong hydrogen bond. Lotsa more. LOL.

Today is Yamuna's bday. She is officially legal. We celebrated her birthday at Modern.

Birthday Girl

 

This is Mong. My Chemistry teacher.

He likes to lecture his students a lot. LOL

P/S: I dont wanna go to school tomorrow!!! God, save me please!!!

Independent

Previously, I had blogged about myself. I am just trying to express my feelings of loss control of my mind. FYI, it's not for the sake of writing, but for the sake of releasing my anger. When you read what I had wrote, it may be a little depressing or it may sound like I am in a deep depression. Well, actually I am neither depressed nor sad. I look like a happy go lucky type of person that is always happy, and cheerful, right? Yes, indeed, I am.

But I am just an ordinary human being and my life still goes on. My life is up side down. Same goes for everyone. But even if I am feeling down, I will be just fine after all because I think there is no point of been upset, depressed or sad. As if like the world is about to end. I take things easily and I let things go easily as well. But somehow it took me a long time to let it go. And, it's always good to let go as it means something better is coming towards you. I dont want to have the same feelings because these feelings will destroy my life. I do appreciate my life as I think that God had endowed me with a good life. I am so glad that I was born normally. Thank you, God!

And, I LOVE MYSELF though I hate myself. I would not do anything to hurt myself when I am feeling down. People seem to be committing suicide when they are feeling down. But I will not commit suicide! Or do anything that hurt myself as I am already been hurt too much. For me, suicide is just a cowardly or foolish act to avoid facing reality. I will still face it no matter how hurt it is. No one gets through life without being hurt by another person. Throughout those experiences, I had learned to become more independent. As they say, no pain no gain. Anyways, thanks for everyone's concern. I am fine. No worries. =)

P/S: Mong is killing me. =(

I HATE MYSELF

I hate myself and no one but God knows.
I hate everything about myself.
I hate so many things that involve myself.
I hate myself more and more each day.
I hate myself more than anything.
I isolate myself and I spend a lot of time on the Internet.
I am a terrible person and I ruin everything in my life.
I believe that I don't deserve any good things.
I see a lot of reasons why I hate myself but i don't know how to fix them.
I don't trust myself, I don't know how to and I don't trust anyone else because people always hurt me. I also hurt people too.
I am afraid that if I tell anyone anything about me again they will just use it against me and embarrass and ashame me with it so it is better for me just to keep everything to myself from today onwards.


*CAN YOU EVER TRUST A CHEATER?*
Imagine a world where you couldn't truly trust anyone.


P/S: Thanks to my sister. Thanks for those advices.

Thanks, Mei Fenn

I haven't blogged in a while. Thanks to Mei Fenn for taking me out to lunch. It's been quite a while since I last saw her. When was it? Her birthday, i guess! Anyways, I was kinda happy to see her again. I think that she is just the same. Still a blur! And, SAMPAT! LOL

She brought me to a dessert shop about 3 something in the afternoon. So it is considered as my tea time. Before that, she fetched me back to her house to mandi first. LOL. I was just after my school hours. I think I am too dirty and smelly after school hours. Mei Fenn, you know what! Your room was totally messy. This is not very messy compared to mine. Tan Mei Fenn, clean up your room when you are free. Don't throw your shirts around. LOL. especially ahem ahem. I am pretty sure that you know what am I talking about. Right?? LOL...

The dessert shop was located at Subang. Opposite Asian Cafe, if I am not mistaken. I had never really went far away from Klang during weekdays. Most of the time, I will only be in Klang. I cant remember the name of the shop. Ermmmm. Snowflake Taiwanese Dessert Secrets, if I am not mistaken. Basically, they only sell desserts. She had ordered for me. It was quite good but I cant really recall what is the name of this dessert. The main components of the desert we ordered was cincau, sweet potato, and barley. Some may find it too sweet, though. But I think the reasonable pricing makes it a worthy try. I think I am obsessed with it. Nice and tasty. *2 thumbs up*

Looks tasty right???

 

Seriously, it is worth for a try. =)

 

Finished ~~~ ='(

Elaine>Mei Fenn>Me

On our way going back home, Elaine called me. So, we went to Elaine's house. Before that, she brought me to her bf's house. Actually, we were just passing by his house. Purposely. I think Mei Fenn missed her bf so much. She and her bf had been separated. Pity her. Then, I followed Elaine to Chi Liung's PM. I saw Nicholas Sim and Kian Eng. LOL. I realized I haven't been to pasar malam in a while. Reached home about 6 something. After that, my sister and I went to Dewan Dr. Ko. I had my dinner at Sriga,Chi Liung with my sister and her friends. Reached home about 10pm. Take my shower, online for a while and sleep. I didnt do my homework at all. Neither study! Looks like I am not well prepared for my final exam. =(

P/S: I hate myself for been so stupid!!! I would not trust anyone else except for myself!!!