Friends Come And Go. Do they really? Or is it just me?

In life, We gotta accept that friends come and go. No point being sad cause the ones that go will just totally forget you. - My friend posted this on his fb. I completely agreed with his statement. 


Friends do come and go. It's true. And it hurts. Sadly, it's how it'll always be - unless you're really good at keeping friendships. Yeah. I come and go & they come and go. I've had a lot of friends, and only a few close friends that I can really call my 'best friends'. They do walk into my life and walk out again. There is a reason for coming and leaving, it maybe a blessing, a gift, an experience, a lesson. (:


It's really hard to find those lifelong friends who will always be at your side. One of the things that I want most in this world is to find that friend who will stand by my side no matter what. I made and left tons of friends throughout my life. I know the friends I have right now are going to leave me. Its a little bit sad. ):


Actually, it's like a sad fact but there are lots of happy times and stupid times to remember. It's for us to try to keep the ones we want to keep, even calling them up out of the blue. I know we're kind of separated. We drifted apart. But oh well, that's how life is. Even though we've drifted apart and rarely talk, they're the ones who made me into the person I am today. (It's a bit dramatic, I know.) 


Life was so much simpler when you were younger. You were much more innocent. You didn't choose your friends based on how wealthy they are, the color of their skin, etc. It does happen, since people do change, grow up, and life leads them into different directions. So never be sad if they leave you because the better is coming. ;)


I believe the the majority of people you meet will come and go. Whether they will ever come back in your life is a different matter. Most of them go since what is the chances that you will have really strong and good relationships with everyone? Sigh...


One of my friends told me there are some people you can be friends with for life. Even if it does not mean being around each other everyday or something, keeping in touch occasionally or every once in awhile is still good. Those types of friends are hard to find though. Most of them just forget people. This is really seriously true! It's sad but it's natural. There are very few friends that stay with you until the end. =/

I find it's kinda funny. But I will replace the last sentence with ; I AM GONNA PUSH YOU DOWN! :P

I just gotta say people change,lives change and just cherish every moment you have/share with each other. Friends may come and go, but true friends stay behind your back, ready to catch you if you fall. Friends only come and go if both of you don't put an effort to keep the friendship. So, if you really cherish your friends, hold onto them then, don't let them go. :)

Aku Sudah Balik!

Hey guys, it's been a while, I am working now. So I know I've been neglecting my blog as I usually do after a while. Hope everyone is doing really great. I am kinda busy right now. What am I busy with? I am busy doing my job! What job? Blow job! HAHA! I kid! D-E-F-I-N-I-T-E-L-Y-N-O-T-B-L-O-W-J-O-B! :P 

Ok, here is the truth! I am working in a shipping company. And, I am working as a admin assistant. Lol. Thank God, I studied account before. Honestly, knowledge of accounts can make life much easy. My boss pay me less because my working hours are also less. She can't pay me much because I've got no experience at all. Plus, I don't know anything about shipping. Ok larh actually. Office job marh, I can't expect too much. I find it quite easy tho. LESS WORK = LESS PAY! I work on weekdays only. Free and sleep more on weekends! *grins*

I got called up for the interview right after my exam (Thursday). Next day (Friday) actually. Yikes...

Lady Boss (LB) : Hi. :)

Me : Hello! :)

LB : Are you just finished your SPM?

Me : No, I just finished my STPM!  *laughing* (Do I look that young? *shy* And, yesterday was my last day of exam! Gosh, I dont wanna think about it! *sobs*)

LB : So, do you have any actual work experience?

Me : Yeah, I do have one. 

LB : You were working as a?

Me : Promoter. *tee-hee*

LB : How much money do they pay you?

Me : 1K +++

LB : Oh,ok! You have to work very long hours, right? :P

Me : Uh-huh! :(

LB : Actually I've worked as a promoter before and that was right after my spm. I've learned nothing. I just stood for so many freaking hours and I got less pay. So what's the point? But unlike here, you can learn something new here.  

Me : Lol, it's quite true, actually. *malunyer* (I've learned nothing from my previous job? -.- )


LB : You should get some real work experience by this age. Many students like your age are seeking for high pay. Working as a promoter, I know. So what's the point of getting high pay and you are gonna learn nothing at all. Unless you wanna improve your communication skills? =.=


Me :  *I'm nodding my head like Yeah!* 

 

LB : Oh, ok! Clarence said you are gonna further your studies after this, right? 

Me : Erm.. Depends on my results actually. (How can I further my studies if I failed my stpm? Gosh, I got a bad feeling about this! Sigh...)

LB : So, I just assumed that you are gonna leave. Hence, you are working as a part time worker here. :)

Me : Ok... (Dont look upon me, I might work here for the rest of my life if I failed my stpm. *sad face*)

LB : So, I can only pay you this much....because it's a short-time working. I know it's quite less compared to your previous job but it is way easier. I am gonna teach you everything, u know? So you don't have to work on Saturday because I am not working either. 


Me : Oh.. Ok! :)


LB: So.. Are you okay with it? 


Me : Hrmp... :)


LB : Can you start work on Monday?


Me : Erm. Can I start work on January? (I thought of lepak-ing kao kao first! HAHA.)


LB : Why? You are supposed to be free, right? ;)


Me : Hmmm.. I just want to relax for these few days. ;P


LB : Ok then. I am not gonna force you. 


Me : Thank you.


LB : You're welcome.


Me : *waiting for her to ask more questions*


LB : You may leave now. 


Me : Oh? (So fast? HOORAY!!!)


LB : Ok, see you on January 2nd!


Me : Huh? Why 2nd?


LB : Because it's a public holiday. It's ok if you wanna come. :P


Me : Yikess... (OMG! I totally forgot! How embarrassing..... ) Okok, see you then. Bye bye.. :)


LB : Bye... :)


LOL. I changed my mind. I started working immediately right after stpm (December 21st). Yikes.. I need money to lepak! Honestly, I don't have a rich dad. I wasn't born into money. So I think it's better for me to start working now since I've got nothing to do at home. Rotting at home? This is gonna make me grow wider and shorter. Lmao..

Ok back to STPM! Chemistry 1 was my last paper-horrible, terrible and vegetable. Gosh, I don't wanna think about it! STPM WAS HARD FOR ME! STPM IS HARD! Stpm is truely HARD! :('


The results for the 2010 Sijil Tinggi Persekolahan Malaysia (STPM) will be announced on February 21st. ( STPM results on MONDAY ) Yikes.. It ain't no rumor. I think I am going to commit suicide fairly soon. I know that I've done pretty bad. Am I really finished? 我真的完蛋了! :'(

Quote of the day : 

JUST FOR LAUGHS ;)

P/S : Working is even more stressful than STUDYING! -.-

         INHSBRN! *depressing mood* :(

I guess I just miss my ex-classmates. Sometimes, I wish I could turn back time. Sigh... I just realized we have been separated for about 2 years but thank God we do meet up every month. NO! I should thank 'Ho Sock Mun'! She had done a great job in these 2 years. She took the initiated to gather us. She messaged us twice in a month-every friday. Friday is already like our gathering day. She will still message us even tho our attendance wasn't so good in these 2 years. It wasn't full most of the time. I know this is a bit dramatic but I seriously wanna thank her for putting so much effort and time. I am glad she is still doing this. Thank you, Socky! :)

I am always looking forward to seeing 'SeeFion' on our Friday night. I enjoyed hearing her stories about her college life. I found it quite funny. She is very selamba and she has the 'selamba' face. She will tell you off if she doesn't like you. That is what I like about her. She is just being straightforward and I don't find it irritating. *swears to God*

She is way better than those fakers who likes to act so much. They are trying to be good in front of you but behind your back, THEY TALK BAD ABOUT YOU! Nah, these kind of friends should not be appreciated! Why do you worry when you know people are envy about you? Oh, just let them be! They'll envy you so much in your success that they're prepared to bad-mouth you, even injure you...sound unrealistic huh? It's not. It's human nature to envy someone when you think they have something you want or need, and especially when you have a perception of lack. 

The best thing to do if you think you are on the receiving another person's envy is to remain quiet and only defend yourself to the point of truth. Be very careful not to be drawn into actions that are not good for you. They're not worth it because they're the one with the problem. Eventually we can make a friend out of the people who currently envy us. It depends on how we deal with them now. Wouldn't it be a great day to say, "I have no enemies. Not at all!"? This day will never come in your life, but surely you'll come to be friend those that might currently bear a grudge. It is never worth defending your own honor too much. Let your actions speak for themselves. ;)

Just remember ; You understand your place in the world and accept life as it is. For you, "it's all good." People envy how level headed you are. But you're too at peace to even notice. :)


P/S : I think that's a little stupid, because honestly, you're NOT WORTH my TIME! And not just a little stupid.....A LOT BIT STUPID! =P

Finally, I've graduated from pre-u/form 6 (STPM). "You haven't sit for your STPM yet you have already graduated." Mommy laughed at me. I don't think so I will be sad to leave ACS. I am partially happy and I am partially sad. Sad because I may not be seeing my friends anymore. Then we all go our separate ways. Sighhh... I am gonna miss them (friends whom I appreciated). I have quite a few friends whom I've enormously appreciated during this period (1.5 years). Quite a few means less than 5. HAHA. I am kinda satisfied with all the teachers I had. Some can teach, some can't even teach at all. Sorry, no offence. I salute all those teachers who are doing great. One of them is Mr.Mong. His full name is Mong Kwok Seng. I am so glad to have him as my class teacher. He is a very good and dedicated teacher. *thumbs up*  I still like him even tho he used to scold and pull my ears. Happy because I don't have to see all the irritating faces in ACS. HAHA. Seriously, Thank God. I won't be seeing them after STPM. Fuhh... :)

MY BEST GRADUATION PICTURE EVER! :)

I'm gonna miss him a lot. :P

I found it somewhere in acs. 

Fyi, I dont vandalize this school even tho I hate this school. =P

P/S : 18 more days!!! :'(

One Flaw In Women   Women have strengths that amaze men.....     They bear hardships and they carry burdens,     but they hold happiness, love and joy.     They smile when they want to scream.     They sing when they want to cry.     They cry when they are happy     and laugh when they are nervous.     They fight for what they believe in..     They stand up to injustice.     They don't take "no" for an answer     when they believe there is a better solution.     They go without so their family can have.     They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.     They love unconditionally.     They cry when their children excel     and cheer when their friends get awards.     They are happy when they hear about     a birth or a wedding.      Their hearts break when a friend dies.     They grieve at the loss of a family member,     yet they are strong when they     think there is no strength left.     They know that a hug and a kiss     can heal a broken heart.     Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.     They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you     to show how much they care about you.     The heart of a woman is what     makes the world keep turning.     They bring joy, hope and love.     They have compassion and ideas.     They give moral support to their     family and friends.     Women have vital things to say     and everything to give.     HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,  IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.   ;)

Sometimes All We Need is a Good Cry

Yes, I really love this Korean drama. And, I really really love this song. It is my fave song from this drama. This song and its lyrics are so touching I had to post it. I will never be able to erase this song from my memory. I think this song fits perfectly for them. I feel sad every time I hear it. (I cant help feeling sad. Am I overreacting? YES, I AM!) It makes me cry. (I am such a crybaby. I know I AM!) The tears would just come out every freakin' time!


I find it is a really sad song beforehand knowing what the song meant. Now it means more to me with the English translation. It always touches me every time I listen to it. Every time I sing it or hear the song, it reminds me of so many things. The lyrics is just so heartbreaking. OMG it hurts cant help but cry! 


When you have a good cry, it might feel painful and embarrassing at the time, but you feel better afterwards. It we have spent a lifetime suppressing our sadness, we may actually need some practice crying in order to get back in touch with how we feel. Even if you are a guy and you cry, there is nothing wrong with it. I hate it whey guys it is shameful to cry! Only egoistic guys think it is shameful? Real men "DON'T CRY"!? Let me rephrase this sentence. REAL MEN DON'T CRY IN FRONT OF PEOPLE! As if they never cried before?! Hide and cry? Under the bed? In a corner? Well, that is even shameful! Crying is our natural way of releasing emotions of sadness or loss. So...Cry, people! :p


Random Script : Whenever I am feeling sad/stresses/upset I will listen to it. It instantly makes me cry. :'( I feel so much better after a good cry. :) 

Everyday I wake up,
Hoping to get a fresh start.
Praying I can undo,
The mistakes I've done to you.

Everyday it's the same thing,
My memories come to haunt me.
I never knew it'd come to this,
And now I'm regretting it.

Basically I'm saying sorry...
Sorry for my stupidity.
If you find it in your heart to forgive me,
I thank you with full sincerity.

But if you find it too hard to do so, 
It's all right, who can blame you?
If there's even anyone to blame, it's me...
ME AND MY STUPIDITY!



P/S : I am not good enough..... I hate this feeling that I am not good enough for people. I am so tired of trying to fight this feeling. I hate myself! I feel like I am never going to be good enough for anyone! Just to clarify, I am not writing this to get attention!